So yesterday I started the high protein diet. This consists
of an Atkins protein shake for breakfast, and Atkins protein shake for
lunch, and a high protein dinner consisting of low fat meats (yesterday I
had Turkey Meatballs). I can work in some low carb veggies and
fruits.. except I’m not a huge fan of veggies- I’ll stick with the
fruits. Doctor also said I can do sugar free popsicles and sugar free
pudding and such.. I’m doing sugar free italian ice at night before I
go to bed. During the day I snacked on a banana. I’m not really sure
if I’m supposed to be drinking coffee… but I’m still drinking it.
Yesterday around 2:30pm I had the craziest headache. I was hungry and my body was mad at me. That’s when I had a banana. That didn’t really help, but oh well, I’m determined to do this, and if that means suffering a little.. then I guess I’m gunna have to suffer.
I’m anxious a lot lately. I wake up at 5 or 6 am every day and my heart feels like it’s racing.. my thoughts are a parade in my head going in circles… I know it’s because I’m stressed with all the trouble I’ve had so far. I can’t help but be ‘on alert’ for the next thing that will cause me trouble. I’m exhausted. So tired of being let down.. I feel like if I stay ‘on alert’ I won’t be let down because I will already have been expecting it. My therapist says I’m putting myself through torture. I agree with her. But I feel like I can’t control my thoughts. It’s almost like a ‘fight or flight’ response.
I’m just glad my depression is not too bad this week. They had to switch my anti-depressant and my anti-anxiety medication from extended release to regular release last week. This is in preparation for surgery, since I will have to be able to crush my pills and you can’t crush extended release pills. I was worried about the switch in medication coinciding with a major depression meltdown. So far I’ve been good. Let’s hope I stay that way!
Yesterday around 2:30pm I had the craziest headache. I was hungry and my body was mad at me. That’s when I had a banana. That didn’t really help, but oh well, I’m determined to do this, and if that means suffering a little.. then I guess I’m gunna have to suffer.
I’m anxious a lot lately. I wake up at 5 or 6 am every day and my heart feels like it’s racing.. my thoughts are a parade in my head going in circles… I know it’s because I’m stressed with all the trouble I’ve had so far. I can’t help but be ‘on alert’ for the next thing that will cause me trouble. I’m exhausted. So tired of being let down.. I feel like if I stay ‘on alert’ I won’t be let down because I will already have been expecting it. My therapist says I’m putting myself through torture. I agree with her. But I feel like I can’t control my thoughts. It’s almost like a ‘fight or flight’ response.
I’m just glad my depression is not too bad this week. They had to switch my anti-depressant and my anti-anxiety medication from extended release to regular release last week. This is in preparation for surgery, since I will have to be able to crush my pills and you can’t crush extended release pills. I was worried about the switch in medication coinciding with a major depression meltdown. So far I’ve been good. Let’s hope I stay that way!
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